Wednesday, 5 September 2012


I just went through 4 epiphanies in the last ten minutes, and it's doing my head in. I wasn't meant for this much... MEH

Epiphany 1- I'm doing it again. I'm getting angrier and taking it out on the people of blogland. I'd like to distance myself, to leave for a few weeks and calm down. Small problem. I can't...
Last time I tried to leave for three weeks. I didn't last over one, and I... well, I didn't leave as such, I just didn't comment. Most of the time I was there. My whole life is on computer know. Writing, looking at videos, talking, watching TV... The only thing that I may count out is reading. No, wait, reading a book I can count, but just reading I can count out. I read lots of your stories on the blogs. I want to leave. But one, I can't, no matter how hard I try. Two, it won't calm me down. It just won't keep me calm...

Epiphany 2- Oh, well, that's personal. You'll probably never find out about that

Epiphany 3- I'm sick of being anti-social. I want to be normal, have normal friends in real life, think normal thoughts, do normal things. I want to be popular.

Epiphany 4- I do not have anything in common with the new people on the blog. I don't get along because I'm just not like most of them.

And while I was writing this, I had another epiphany.

Epiphany 5- I am taking life way too seriously. I don't know how long I've been like this, but I looked at all my old posts and saw how I looked at life. I'm taking it too seriously. So I'm not going to anymore. I feel better already.

Out of all of those, I only like epiphany 5, because after I had this epiphany I changed me outlook on life and started feeling better.


  1. I adore epiphanies. They amaze the living crap out of yourself. I like the fifth one too. I am pretty sure I also relate to all of those. Its quite creepy how you had epiphanies for both of us..

  2. 5 totally works!

    Okay, five minutes later and I still haven't published this comment. :P

    Actually, reading this cheered me up a lot, and I wasn't feeling my best today. And now I'm dancing to this song that's stuck in my head. I don't even know what it's called. Anyway, yeah, 5 was your best epiphany, I reckon.

    Omigosh, tap your ankle with your fingernails, it makes a weird sound.

  3. Ok I'm just gonna have to point out that normality is pretty retarded. I watch so called "normality" play out at school all the time and honestly it just annoys the living sh*t out of me. If you'll pardon the expression.
    I wouldn't try to be popular if I were you; popular is superficial and pointless. Don't be afraid of those idiot's opinions either. They're only trying to make themselves feel better.

    It doesn't matter that you don't love all the new faces (or profile pictures if you prefer). You don't have to be friends with everyone! You've got so many old friends on here! That's what matters!

    And yes. Obviously #5 is the best. It's good when you feel good.
    Ride the wave Nix. You're bound to find the beach eventually.

  4. Nix, normality is over rated. I'm not just saying that, it is. If you look around now, people are changing. they're no longer afraid to be different or stand out. they no longer want to fit the grain. Everything I can see is changing. If you want to be normal, ok, but you'll be trying to stay in the past. as for the new people in Blogland. Trying to live in the past won't help. It will only eat at you. If I lived in the past my life could either be better but it would probably worse. just take what you've got and make it work.